Sunday, January 29, 2006

NASA's top climate scientist says the Bush administration tried to stop him from talking about emissions linked to global warming.

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Friday, January 27, 2006

Kids

I miss the kids from the kindergarten
I miss them so much
Kids are wonderful.
They are always open
They can be brutal and direct, but always open, they dont hide
If they dont like you, you are sure to know
And the other way around as well
I think that is great
Its a relief to be around people who are like that
Just true to their nature
Like miniature hippies, ha ha

This is a photo of me and a girl in the kindergarten playing hide and seek, where I just found her, he he.
Hmmmm, does one have to be dangerous
just because one has "dangerous" tastes?

You Are Lightning

Beautiful yet dangerous
People will stop and watch you when you appear
Even though you're capable of random violence

You are best known for: your power

Your dominant state: performing

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

I seem to like to quote songs a lot in this blog, even though I find it somewhat cheesy
Sometimes it is just easier to say what you want to say through somebody elses words

BIRD ON A WIRE

Like a bird on the wire,
Like a drunk in a midnight choir
I have tried in my way to be free.

Like a baby, stillborn,
Like a beast with his horn
I have torn everyone who reached out for me.

I saw a beggar leaning on his wooden crutch,
He said to me, you must not ask for so much.
And a pretty woman leaning in her darkened door,
She cried to me, hey, why not ask for more?

Oh like a bird on the wire,
Like a drunk in a midnight choirhave tried in my way to be free.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Eyolf The Dragon

It has been a long time since I told you all anything about the purple-spotted dragon under my bed
I have managed to find out that his name si Eyolf
He also likes Yoghurt with Pinapple-taste
(He eats the ones I put on the floor, even the package around them, but he has never touched the strawberry-flavoured ones)

Thats all for now
I will tell you more if I find out more
To learn to let go

Is one of the hardest things
I have learned in life

Sometimes you must let go of a dream
sometimes a wish or a longing
sometimes a person
but sometimes letting go of a person means letting go of all these things

Somebody once said to me
I expect nothing and ask for nothing, so I will never be disapoited

I will never do this. I will hope and dream, and wish and long.
I will let my heart be open and not close it because I am scared to be disapointed
And I will take risks - saying I care, even though the other person seems cold and doesnt answer
I cannot close myself for life!
But God, it hurts

And I just wish it all back, though what I am doing is saying goodbye
I dont know what else to do right now
Maybe time will make it clearer


The Chinese sign for letting go or release

Med Kroppen mot jorden

With my body against the earth
Looking into the endless sky
I am beyond thoughts and words
There is nothing I have to understand
except that my body is heavy against the ground
that the sky is blue
I am happy and strong
With my body against the earth
there is nothng I have to understand

Med kroppen mot jorden
och blicken i det eviga blå
är jag bortom tankarna och orden
där finns inget jag måste förstå
utom att kroppen är tung mot vår mark
att himlen är blå
och jag är lycklig och stark
med kroppen och jorden
finns det inget jag måste förstå

Lyrics by Lisa Ekdahl

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Friday, January 20, 2006

Cucumbers

After spesific requests I am now going to talk about a subject I know you all have been waiting for me to treat...

I have been notified that our dearest Caru has a cucumber in his windowpost, also that this very cucumber has been lyingin this place for over three days.
On this occation I will take the opportunity to talk a little about cucumbers, while also keeping my references to this very same above mentioned object of the specimen.

The recent years it has been a lot of chages in the cucumbermarket. This varies from country to country depending on their membership in the now so well known European Union.
As an example I want to put an emphasis on Norway.
Norways has never, and will probably not for *Hopefully* a long time be a meber of this very union.
because..... and this is a terrifying fact my friends, if Norway got to be a member of this dreaded Union, it will have terrifying concequeces.
One of the consequences will be that small farmers in Norway will be unable to keep up competition, and probably will *have to pack up* as we say it in good old English.
And other will most likely be increased pollution, as the European Union has other standars for cleansing and a higher emphasis on prodution and economy.
An other result might be genemanipulated food, that will be allowed in the market. Now Norway has strict restrictions against this.
But worst off all, and I must say my pen is trembling while writing this, the cucumber would drastic change the appearance.

As we speak Nowegain cucumbers are shaped strangely. The bend and form in very direction they want. They look like natures little wonders, twisting and curling as you try to cut them up in your salad for dinner.

But if Norway enter as a member of the Eropean Union, we will all find one day, that our lives will not be as twisted and curled as it used to be.
We will all end up as Carus cucumber in the windowpost.
Strictly right, perfectly bended as all the other cucumbers have to be.
And left there for three days just to be put in a Greek salad in the end


The End

PS. There is a lot more to say about cucumbers, but as I now am in school, I think I should try and stick to business, which at the very mooment is photography.
If you want me to talk more about this very interesting and alluring subject, please notify me

Thursday, January 19, 2006

9

It happened again!!!!
What is up with these teachers?
I got a nine on my written exam as well - in photography analysation.
The bad thing is that I dont think I really deserved it.

Thing is, I really didnt read for it. Hardly at all.
But, I have always had this really sneaky gift.
You can give me any subject at all, it could be cucumbers even.
And I can spontaniously ramble about it for ages just using knowledge I have read, analyzation skills and a own talent for "blah-blahing".(I should really be a journalist, huh?)
I am a badass at it, ha ha
And thats what I used on this exam

Well, I guess I should be happy about it, but I feel a littel bad.
When she gave it to me I though it was somebody elses and after I understood it was mine I was about to ask her why she had given me this grade and if it was for real

Now I only have one more exam to get feedback on.
And that was the one I thought went well
I bet I will get a lousy grade on that then, ha ha ha ha!

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

I talked to this guy that I talked to a really long time ago and I talked to him again now and when we talked he said he would like me to talk a littel about him in my blog but as I didnt remember his name when we talked and he refused to give it to me just to be mean I am not going to talk about him here
;)
Heeeeee!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Friday, January 13, 2006

Aasa goes surreal

This is made *the natural way*. No photoshop involved
I had a lot of fun taking these photos. I see that my inspiration is coming back
I just forgot for a while what I like, because we had so boring tasks in the school.
I love symbolism and archetypes in photo and other creative expressions.
*A dash of darkness has never hurt either*
And when I can work with that I feel a spark inside and I really get a kick out of doing it.
Its what I live for!








Thursday, January 12, 2006

9

I Got a NINE!
A freaking 9 on my exam photos.
It is only me and one other guy that has gotten this grade the entire semester.
And he did some awesome photos, which I loved!
(The grades here in Spain are from 1 to 10. To get a 10 is nearly impossible))
I am so happy!
Yaaay!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Goodbye

Goodbye
To a dream I had of you
To somebody I thought you were
To a wish you lith inside me that now has died

You are a shadow that forms as it wants
as it is needed in the moment
A deceit to the eyes who yearns to see
but still yearns to be misled
To the person afraid of tenderness
that still wants it

You give pieces but never all
Cause you dont have it for yourself either
Deep down a emptiness
and a cry for love
that you cannot give
not even to yourself
Cause you have never been given it

You have felt rejection
so you give rejection
you have been served lies
so you give lies
you are in the moment what i want you to be
even though you think you are yourself

goodbye
to you
and to the things in me
that you mirror
I am my own deceit as well
reaching for you
and playing a game
together

goodbye to all of this
I am starting new
I am starting to love
I am opening up
to those who can love

goodbye

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

When you change
the way you look at things,
the things you look at change
Åsa in the snow

Monday, January 09, 2006

Mess

Gosh
I have no idea when my plain leaves tomorrow
I cant find my tiquet
I haven´t packed my stuff yet
It´s 11 pm
My room is a mess
he he he eh
I am the mess maybe
Puh!

Saturday, January 07, 2006

What a wonderful day
with a great world filled with magic and experiences yet to be sought out for me
Deep seas that haven't dived in
Trees I haven´t climbed yet
Countries I have never seen
People I have yet to know
I am just a happy bastard in a freaking good world

PS: If anybody is keen on suggesting a good country / city to go to for me in about 4 months to get a job / photoschool I would be grateful for it is always fun to hear what you recommend
Hugs
xxx
Aasa

Friday, January 06, 2006

Realization time

Oh....
The day when you understand that you have done the same shit as your mom
The same shit that you always loathed that she did to you
It´s an aweful and wonderful day at the same time

But I think at some point it happens to a lot of us
They were the ones who taught us to be humans right? So we copied them.

This realization is awfull because it hurts, and you feel like shit for doing this thing to somebody else
But wonderful because now you see it and you can work on it to stop and never do it again
Today was such a day for me

xxx
Aasa

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

"Wifies" hell

I had a "reunion" with some old schoolmates yesterday
And I must say it almost felt like a near-death experience.

I sat for several hours listening to "the girlies" with rings on their fingers talking about babies, car mortages, how they are tired of that their husband just watches soccer all the time, how they were going to decorate the guestroom etc etc etc.....

I felt like I had landed in "Trivia Hell" and I was the black cheep who not only was babyless and apartementless, but worst of all - I was single without a finished education.... Mad horror!
They must have seen me as a weird alien, and I felt the same way about them.

I was timing them to see how long it would take before somebody said something actually intersting and not shallow, that didn´t have anything to do with
1: their boss
2: their breastfeeding
3: their football-obsseseed husbands (Which were guys I even wouldnt have considered if they were the last men in the universe. I would prefer singledom for eternaty instead. )
4: how much cafee they were drinking
5: possible baby-names

...but it seems it never ocurred and in the end I had to flee the crimescene, giving up.
I seem to be born to strangeness
And to me, that is a good thing
:)
I am thinking....






...

New Zealand
...

Hmmmmm

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Happy, happy, merry, merry and all that stuff - new year to you all!



























Report 2













































Report 1




RAID




BLUESCREEN MESSAGE:

viasraid.sys
usbport.sys

*** STOP: ox0000008E
(0xC0000005, 0xBF826F6B, 0XA8DID520, 0X00000000)
*** win32k.sys - Address BF826F6B base at BF800000, Datestamp 45fol3f6

STOP: OXOOOOOO24 (OXOO19O2FE, OXA5F59F8O, OXA5F59CFC, OXF742D6D9)
*** kmixer.sys - Address A5F59F80 base at ASF59F80 Datestamp OOOOOOOO
*** kmixer.sys - ADdress A5F59C7c base at A5F59C7C Datestamp OOOOOOOO
*** viarai\d.sys - adress F442D6D9, base at OOOOOOOO F742COOO, datestamp 3faOdc17
and
*** STOP : 0x00000050
(0xA7EED890, OXOOOOOOO8, OXA7EED890, OXOOOOOOOO)
and:
*** STOP: OxOOOOOO8E
(OXCOOOOOO5, OXBF826F6B, OXA8DID52O, OXOOOOOOOO)
*** win32k.sys - Address BF826F6B base at BF8OOOOO, Datestamp 45fol3f6

SANDRA REPORT:

REM AUTOEXEC.BAT is not used to initialize the MS-DOS environment.
REM AUTOEXEC.NT is used to initialize the MS-DOS environment unless a
REM different startup file is specified in an application's PIF.

REM Install CD ROM extensions
lh %SystemRoot%\system32\mscdexnt.exe

REM Install network redirector (load before dosx.exe)
lh %SystemRoot%\system32\redir

REM Install DPMI support
lh %SystemRoot%\system32\dosx

REM The following line enables Sound Blaster 2.0 support on NTVDM.
REM The command for setting the BLASTER environment is as follows:
REM SET BLASTER=A220 I5 D1 P330
REM where:
REM A specifies the sound blaster's base I/O port
REM I specifies the interrupt request line
REM D specifies the 8-bit DMA channel
REM P specifies the MPU-401 base I/O port
REM T specifies the type of sound blaster card
REM 1 - Sound Blaster 1.5
REM 2 - Sound Blaster Pro I
REM 3 - Sound Blaster 2.0
REM 4 - Sound Blaster Pro II
REM 6 - SOund Blaster 16/AWE 32/32/64
REM
REM The default value is A220 I5 D1 T3 and P330. If any of the switches is
REM left unspecified, the default value will be used. (NOTE, since all the
REM ports are virtualized, the information provided here does not have to
REM match the real hardware setting.) NTVDM supports Sound Blaster 2.0 only.
REM The T switch must be set to 3, if specified.
SET BLASTER=A220 I5 D1 P330 T3

REM To disable the sound blaster 2.0 support on NTVDM, specify an invalid
REM SB base I/O port address. For example:
REM SET BLASTER=A0

report 3

I got a bluescreen witht he following error addres:
CHKDSK/F
***STOP: 0x00000025 (0x001902FE, 0x99E0153C, 0X99E01238, 0X7F4E625A)
With the following error report: (click to enlarge)


Here are the latest log reports from the crashes:

Error code 1000008e, parameter1 c0000005, parameter2 bf826f6b, parameter3 99dc2c80, parameter4 00000000.

Error code 1000008e, parameter1 c000001d, parameter2 bf80f8a3, parameter3 99df366c, parameter4 00000000.

Error code 1000008e, parameter1 c000001d, parameter2 bf80f8a3, parameter3 99e2db58, parameter4 00000000.